Lovely to be back in the writing space! There has been a long time since last time. I have been trying to use Instagram but the format has its limitations.
I spoke with a person that inspired me a lot to be more focused on me. This person could see that I was missing something.
Pepparkaka in Sweden. Nails here are done from The Beauty Box in London.
The part that was missing was how I come across. My Twitter is the not so serious Tova and my Instagram comes across flashy flashy where I only post pictures of thing I love, restaurants, nice things and what I have succeded with. There is something missing… Where is the real me. Well, it’s here in the text. Pictures have its limitation.
You could say I miss myself a little bit. Where is the reflections? It’s here in the text. It is often found in the text.
The last one and half or two years me and my close friend Sandra’s been writing a secret document with reflections. We select a date where from we do a sum up of the last two weeks or month, what ever date we wrote reflections on the last time.
It help us to reflect and look with a critics eye on our own learnings and what we could have done better. Conclusions. It also helps us say to ourselves, “Stop being so selfish, call you family, save to this, focus on your studies/school” or whatever it might be.
Last year was amazing. With mostly challanges. Mom got rid of her cancer. I split with my partner. I changed jobs and went through some hard myself with my own health. Suicidal due to a implant. I will write about that when it feels right. In two days I am turning 25.
I have clear goals for this year. I want to succeed with my job. I am moving out from my flat in Sevenoaks in 2 weeks and up to north London, to Finsbury Park. Pretty close to the park! It’s a beautiful area. I am not that SAD to leave Sevenoaks, Sevenoaks is what it is.
National Trust Knole Park in Sevenoaks a five minutes walk from my flat..
My best watch from Rotary, new ring to strengthen my own relationship with myself!
It’s a really wealthy area, loads of white high income families. Close to Natioal Trust Knole Park, just outside my flat.
I will not miss 3-4 hours commute I do everyday. And spending around £500 a month depending on what corporate meeting I need to arrange across South UK. I had a appointment regarding getting braces since my teeth are completely zick zack. That might be around £5000. So loads of pesetas. When I was little I was refused braces in Sweden and now my teeth are placed so tight I look like a hyena. It was a bad private dentist so I have cancelled the installment. So if you’re reading this (it’s not too late) I am looking for a NHS or private dentist to do this, let me know if you know one.
Loads of goals, loads of hard work infront of me. Last year I learned that failing is a way to learn and calling off an engagement will haunt you for a long time, but rather that than trouble haunting you for the rest of your life. And with a ring on your finger! I got my own ring now so I’m happy.
Happy days in 2014, this will be successful year too.
Anyway. It’s a long story. I will take everything one day. But I’m back with my writing down my thought now.
Be blessed and take care of yourself and people around you.